She wont remember me,
but i will never forget
my first book sold,
the first of 3 on the day.

the indescribable feeling I had
a feeling i have
never had this side of the sun
thinking this could be,
No, this is the best
day of my life.

She asked me to sign the book
leave my mark on it
i proceeded to scribble out
my "line"
but i was so excited
and so nervous
i do not know what i wrote

The butterflies flew vigorously
passing the shiver through my veins
and into my hands
I took a breath half way through
to try and calm down
"don't fuck this up"
I wanted my line to be perfect
I wanted the signature to be perfect
I don't know if I achieved either.

If i didn't spell it correctly,
or write it correctly,
then Gaelle, this is what i was
suppose to write:

"To Gaelle,
Live to Live, not because you have to.
Sam Zadgan 26/04/03"

I don't think people know the effect
they have on others,
she may have seen it as
just another purchase on a day out
but me....no.

This day will remain with me
till i have exhaled my last breath.

Thank you Gaelle.